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| so now my life at home is pretty much the same maybe better... something that im really glad that is happening is that my parents actually seem interested in me going to college eventhough theyre still not into it that much but at least they are thinking about actually helping me pay for it... :D that makes me happy and nothing else will make me really happy than to go to my dream school [Texas A&M] i dont know i just love it... other than this SChool well were in spring break so yeah from this week nothing really has happened but i guess i miss everyone and maybe i miss someone much more than i wish i did.. :[ it always happens during the breaks so yeah ugh i hate it and love it whenever he cant get out of my head but i guess thats what happens u know.... so i guess the tafe trip is next week... this time im really not that excited about it i dont know why.... but hopefully it will be much better than the last one not that it wasnt but i just want it to be better and i guess it will since kim is going yay :]..... | | |
| Well i dont know lately there has been a lot of stuff going thru my mind.. i wish that i wouldnt think about those stuff but i know that at some point it will happen.. yeah graduation is getting closer.. and im not going to say that im excited but i dont know theres this feeling tha makes me scared of what will happen later on like i know im going to miss everyone and i dont know what im going to do without my "click" but i know that i can survive :D and yup i also promised someone that i was going to do something if they did something first... and that person did it.. and now is my turn to do it but i just dont know how or when... i know that is the best because it just needs to get out of my system.. lol yup but yeah lately i dont know my life has been pretty depressing... but yeah i dont know im just hoping that everything will get better! soon! becuase if it doesnt i dont know i think im going to go crazy....lol jk... Lately i have also been thinking about other people a lot.. like i really wonder if by me worrying about everyone else and helping them is a really a good thing that im doing.. i dont know sometimes i feel like i care too much for others but those people in the end of the day dont even care for me... or yeah some people just take advantage of me... idk.. theres a lot of stuff that i have been thinking and believe me is not fun thinking about all of this... :[ | | |
| so yeah school started and well i guess or i dont know but i dont think this year will be much better than last but anyways whatever this year holds for me... yeah i dont know what can one do after trying everything to make that person that one loves stop doing whatever theyre doing which affects their health, but yeah i sometimes i get tired of it, i hate it but what can i do when i just cant do it anymore!!!! What do i do when i feel like giving up, but i just can't because i just cant........ | | |
| Well i dont know if i should of posted this or not but i dont know i just felt like writting this..... yesterday i was thinking about everything, and yeah i came to realize that there will always be hypocrites in your life that might not like you at all and pretend to be your friends... and i barely realized this, i cant believe i didn't realize it well probably i did but i just ignored it because i thought that maybe time would of changed it, or that maybe i was just stuff in my mind lol but i guess not and yeah it has happened to me once and learn not to grow resentments on them i even talked to them i pretended like if i dint know about how it felt, but i guess its going to happen again and i will still be that person that will never hate because of pretending to like me i will still be that person that would talk to her no matter what, i also realized that one should do stuff for others because is a right thing to do but sometimes it seems like when you keep on doing it and ur stuck with doing stuff for that person, and only because that person takes advantage of you, is not right whenever one person is nice to you and another person takes advantage of that person....i also realized that you will never know a person as the palm of your hand because they act differently with different types of people...yeah i might be tired of everything in my life... yeah i've found myself alone in many occasions but there's always someone there for me and that someone will always be there for me.... i'm tired of freaking addictions.... i'm tired of people thinking that whatever i say is stupid.... people should be their own self and not try or pretend to be someone else... but yeah in the end i will always be there for anyone no matter what because thats just who i am.. | | |
| in the end all the choices that one makes come to be yours, in the end you realize that you've made some bad decisions through life, which will never be able to change, life is too short to waste and to regret stuff that you know that will never change because all of the decisions came to you and you were the one that made them...... ---Jews--- | | |
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